What was that all about?
Welcome to my new and… improved? website.
I got an email in December from my web host, Red Umbrella, letting me (and everyone else) know that she was shuttering the hosting arm of her service package.
I switched from host gator to Red Umbrella after SESTA/FOSTA, amid concerns over privacy and free speech and such. A lot of us were concerned that US based companies would proactively shutter our websites, and I wanted to get ahead of it.
It was great! She’s a lovely human and kept it fairly simple and straight forward. I’d built my last website, and the one before that… building another one, with newer photos and an updated theme sounded like a fun project! I was happy with it for a long time.
Of course, over time, people change, and I had started thinking sometime last year that I was a different person. First off: I weigh 20 pounds less than I did in my header image, and my hair is a solid foot longer. Secondly: I’ve maybe come down to earth a bit. I’m still a pretty high energy person, but between “miz franch littel gerl frond” and now, I’ve grown up some more.
And grown tired? ha!
I’ve grown callouses from lifting weights and picking chords, grown a wardrobe and a style, and most of all: confidence. I find I need less and less to hear that I am wise, or good, or kind, or pretty. Because I know those things to be true in a way I didn’t before. Because I’ve worked towards making those things true in ways that I respect.
Also I’ve grown a habit for procrastination.
That’s not true, I’ve always procrastinated. But I’ve also always had fear and insecurity nipping at my heels. I didn’t need strategies to motivate myself, because fear is powerful enough on it’s own.
Incidentally, I wonder if that’s why there are so many wealthy folks who still chase money? Perhaps they’ve not yet mastered their fear?
Aaaaaanyway.
I procrastinated, and did not export my website before my term ended. Then there came a series of irritating technical issues with my domain registrar and name records and blah blah blah.
So here we are. With a lot of new words and not a lot of new design. Also not a ton of new photos. I’ve been procrastinating on that, too.
But I have discovered a solution!
Admin dates.
Body doubling by appointment with ladies I love and work with. We bring our computers, we bring our brains, we sometimes bring snacks, and we get. shit. done.
Which is why this is finally happening today, after more than two weeks being down. Thank you Rose for coming to my rescue.
I apologize for what must have been a bit of a shock. Maybe not as bad as January 2016, for some of us, but not fun in any case.
I further apologize to you and myself: I did not export my blog. I stopped double posting to my current website and my old blog back in 2021. Everything since then still exists… in the pages on my personal computer. Sigh.
As my admin dates become a more regular thing, I expect to finally finish all the drafts I’ve had sitting around for the past year, and in the process I will unearth, refresh, and repost whatever I can find.
In the meantime I hope you enjoy rereading old thoughts, and seeing you soon, now that, you know, the website is back. lol.
www.divinadaemon.com